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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Ready for 2008!

Well, it’s a new year, that’s for sure.

I’m looking forward to 2008 and all it brings. So far it’s been off to a busy start. New Year’s was my birthday, and I have to say that it was a more difficult day than Thanksgiving and Christmas combined. I wasn’t prepared for the memories that bombarded me the day after Christmas - when the countdown to my birthday would begin. I had forgotten how Chelsea would get so excited for my day - teasing me about how old I was getting, stressing about not having gotten me a gift yet…. Working at making me that perfect homemade card. I use to love her excitement - for as many of you know - I personally don’t get excited about my birthday. On Thanksgiving and Christmas, we stayed so busy that I didn’t have time to dwell on me - yet on my birthday, no matter how hard I tried, the focus was continually on me. Phone calls, emails, birthday cards… all very sweet and I’m so thankful to have those in my life who remember… but also a constant reminder that I wasn’t hearing from the one I wanted most to hear from.

But that’s okay. It’s done. It didn’t get better right away with migraines and Kati getting some kind of stomach flu the day before she was supposed to be the flower girl in Mary’s wedding…

… but what a beautiful wedding it was! Jeff helped much with the decorating, and Kati loved hanging out with the radiant bride. It was a special day that we will always remember.

The sun is out today, though I am a tad disappointed that we didn’t get any snow last night. I found a video clip on my phone from Jan 16 of last year - of Chelsea and Kati playing in the snow. It seems like lately I’ve been bombarded with memories.

Jeff and I had a fabulous time at the coast just before Christmas. It was the first year that I had everything done days ahead of time. That’s something I hope I accomplish next year as well. We had a great storm and a great room, and I’m so ready to go again.

We have a retreat planned in a few days that will be refreshing - up towards Mt. Hood - again, hoping for a few minutes in the snow - and hours by the warm fireplace. We’ll be with some of our closest friends, and I’m looking forward to it big time.

Jeff has been busy lining up those camping reservations for the summer as well. I’m so glad he does that, for him getting a jump start makes it so we have some pretty sweet places to stay. Of course, we’ll be hitting Beachside at least a couple of times. He’s itchin’ for some new toys - Polaris like - so we’ll see what happens.

I guess that’s about it. I’m not feeling super chatty these days (obviously) - and I apologize to those of you whom I still haven’t returned phone calls to. The migraine has been pretty intense and I haven’t had the phone ringers on in some time. However, I do still check my email and myspace pretty regularly (which in fact has been quite fun lately as I’ve recently been reconnected with 2 friends from school).

There is much happening that is promising for a good year to come… new migraine treatment, new ministry opportunities, recreation, new friendships, and of course, time with our loved ones whom we treasure more than ever. Not forgetting those life lessons that we learned through last years trials, and applying them now to make this year one of the best yet!

Happy New Year!

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Krissy Keelan said...

What a beautiful flower girl Kati was!!! I'm sorry the holidays and your birthday was so hard to go through without Chelsea. I'm sure you made some special memories with Kati though and were reminded of many special times with Chelsea that you will remember forever.
Those migraines...I wish they were not still bothering you. Wow, it's been months and months of this. Praying the new treatment offers relief!

emily said...

I love the pictures! Kati, Jessica, and of course the bride, Mary, all look SO beautiful!
I wish I could take away the migraines, I wish I could take away the hurt in your heart. Know that I love you so much and I am keeping you in my prayers. I hope to see you tomorrow night and give you a hug. I am glad to hear that you were able to go the coast and have a good time there. Ugh, the stomach flu is no fun...I know last week Kati told me that she was puking all night. Poor thing. I am glad that has passed. Give Kati a hug and kiss for me please!
Loving you so much,

SharonK said...

Life can be so hard, so beautiful and so tragic at the same time. You continue to be a testament to the memory of your exquisite girl who brought so much to so many of us. I just sat down and read your last three full emails to Nick. He was quiet for a moment and then he said "let's just all get in the car and go up to Oregon and wrap our arms around her." We all love you so much and wish we could do just that, drop everything and jump in the car and surround you like wagon trains and somehow lift you up.
I hope your migranes cease. You are and will contiue to be in our prayers.
I loved the pictures of Katie in the beautiful wedding! She is of course, off the precious scale! Such beautiful daughters, such a beautiful mother.
So deeply loved by so many.
Now run to the coast and enjoy the solace and serenity the ocean always offers!
Go with my blessings and love always, Aunt Sharon

Lori said...

What a bitter sweet update. Miss Kati looks so beautiful in her flower girl ensemble and brings such a smile to my face. But at the same time my heart just aches for you as you continue to miss Chelsea Rae desperately. I'm praying for all of you and hope to see you soon.